A heartbreak isn't as loud as a bomb exploding.
It can be as quiet as a feather falling.
But the most painful thing is that no one hears it except you.

Alright, got back some of the results today. Some were disappointing, like e.maths. 51/100 for paper 2, seriously?! Totally pulled my total down, luckily paper 1 was rather high I would say.
B4 for chemistry, quite okay, improved from a F9 in prelim 1. English paper 2 wasn't very pleasant. Physics paper 1 was the same.
However geography paper 1, physical geography was a disappointment. Hopefully things go well for geography paper 2 then.
Getting more papers back tomorrow, hopefully they don't get screwed up though I'm sure I'll for my combined humanities.
Shall stay back for night study tomorrow, no more wifi ): This is so going to be boring.
In no mood for mugging today cas' I'm mentally drained.

Just drew up the schedule for O level and replace the prelim 2 schedule & that's all I did today.
Boring much. 27 days more to O level, counting down every single day.
The number of days left freaks me out, like seriously.
Now, I'm trying to focus and get everything else out of my mind. I know this ain't going to be easy for me but yeah, I have the confidence. Always have the tendency to drift off.
Oh ya, I'm going to catch Don't be afraid of the dark with peeps on wed :D Can't wait, my first legal nc16 show alright! Sorry if I'm acting like a "sua gu" here.
Shall post on wed then, time for bed (: Tatas.

This time, I'm just going to say fuck you, smile and walk off.

Hey lovelies, just reached home from a wedding banquet.
Well, it was held in the afternoon at the Noble House at UIC building.
Woke up early in the morning just to get dress and all. The place was awesome and pretty even though it isn't a hotel ballroom.
The food served was great and I was full halfway through the banquet so didn't finished all the courses. Love sitting at the VIP table. Hee, you have people to serve you food that had been portioned.
Oh yes, the couple was so sweet! Envy envy, haha. My aunt really looks damn pretty in those gowns. Overall the whole banquet was awesome. The gift was chocolates, sweet & lil' bitter.
Went to walk at Marina Bay Sands with the big family of 16 people. Long time since we did so.
The shops there are like all branded :\ Go there do window shopping also can.
Today, for the first time I get to enter a casino :P Haha, not really enter la, I just went to to top of it which is connected to the casino so it's like you can see everything happening in the casino.
It was rather big and grand I would say. Rather amazed cause I had never enter a casino.
Okay, shan't be some "sua gu" anymore.

Woke up with a horrible mood today, my mood was like screwed up.
I swear, I was pissed when I saw something I thought I shouldn't see. I was like "Oh, great. Screw you." (:
But then I got my thoughts sorted out and yea, I'm happy now. Happy girl here, lalala.
Was flattered today >< hehe. Rare alright. Took my weight yesterday & I've successfully slimmed down, target is set at 45kg. C'mon you can it! But actually I think I've lost weight because of that gastric pain and I threw out all I ate :x
Oh well, who cares!
Say hi to the new me (: No more tears & rubbish. Shall be strong.
School tomorrow, hmmm going to get back papers.
October 14 is when secondary school life ends, may the rest of these weeks be memorable.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIVA KEY! :D
Yeah, the reason why I'm posting is mainly because of him. He's such a cutie isn't it?
That photo was from the SHINee's World Concert in Singapore which I didn't go for ):
I remembered the first time I started going crazy over SHINee was during the period when Ring Ding Dong came out. Key is so damn hot with his bangs can?! Hee.
Alright, enough of fangirl-ing. School was rather boring today with exception to the class performance.
RI and AJC came down to give talks. I'm truly impressed by RI's principal, the way she answer the question regarding HCI and RI is totally "win liao lo" those kind.
Class performance for sec 4s after recess. 409 was just simply awesome :D
About 1 more month left to spend with 409, may everything be smooth and enjoyable. Last year as a class in Nan Hua yeah.
Besides that, I would like to thank those people who messaged and asked if I was okay (: Thanks a lot for your concern, really appreciate them. Was feeling better so went to school for class performance. The pain from the previous day was simply unbearable, I was basically stoning in bed for the whole day. Threw out everything I ate, worst experience of gastric pain ever.

Don't say or promise anything if you're not going to do it.
Because talk is cheap.

Hellooo! Prelim 2 is finally over :D Not really good news cause there's still O levels in like a month's time or even lesser.
Physics MCQ paper isn't that easy :\ okay, I don't care as long as prelims are over.
Went to bugis with junyi today. Had lunch at food junction. The spicy and sour noodles suck to the max -.- waste my 5 bucks .__.
Went shopping at bugis street, most of the shops aren't opened when we're there so we just kept walking in rounds till all the shops open. I know it's lame, but no choice alright. Bought 2 tops & 2 bottoms. Super happy. Shall wear them out soon! :D
Got an envelope clutch too just to go with my outfit for this sunday's wedding banquet.
Bought koi and went to try out our clothes at iluma. Super nice can? Hehe. However, I spent like 50+ dollars so I'm officially broke ): Shan't shop till O levels end. Must save up, don't spend.
Okay, happy girl today. New clothes :P
Headed back to jurong point afterwards and did some window shopping.

Deadline: by the end of O levels.

"It's not going to be easy but it's going to be worth it."

Yes, that's what I've been telling myself. All these hard work, pain, sufferings will be worthwhile someday & efforts are going to pay off. This concerns studies, relationships as such.

Left with paper 1s for sciences and prelim 2 will be over. Say hello to full force mugging and O levels. Shall catch as much movies as possible before O levels :D So many nice movies waiting out there. Heehee. My face is finally recovering and the skin is peeling off O: damn painful. Well, at least it proves that the $50+ cream did work alright. Currently, I'm in the "exams are over" mood.
Can't wait for the wedding banquet on 25 sep! Have decided what to wear :D Happy max. Bugis shopping with Junyi on Wednesday. Shall go get myself a handbag and some other stuff.
By the way, I seriously don't know what's wrong with me these few days. The memories from the past with him just keeps replaying in my mind before I sleep. Like what? Though they are the good & sweet ones. Well, forget it.
Shall ATTEMPT to sleep earlier tonight, I need my beauty sleep you see :P
Will post after all papers had ended on wed (: tatas

Hurhur, it's finally the end of the week. A tiring week with a lack of sleep.
Currently, I have absolutely no confidence for any papers that are finished. Hopefully the results won't be as bad as those back in prelim 1.
Now, there's only a total of 4 papers left to go. Time check, 39 more days to O levels.
That's not a very long period of time yeah. So I guess I don't have much time to rest after prelim 2. Shall mug and study at full force.
Slept till my heart's content when I reached home after papers. Was totally drained from all the studying.
& I totally hate my current skin complexion. Freaking irritating, sometimes I would like to tear my face off like seriously. Thanks to all the stress and lack of rest, it had been hard for my skin to recover back to it's good condition. Sadgirl_95 TT
I can't wait for prelim 2 to end and take a break from studying, real tiring. I need more sleep ):
Oh yes, there's so many nice movies coming out and I want to watch all of them O:
Johnny English Reborn, Fright Night, Abduction (gosh, Taylor Launter!), Dream house.
Anyone wants to catch a movie with me? Haha! ><
Shall rest for today & continue with all the mugging for human geography paper 2 & additional mathematics this coming weekend.
I know I'm random but I'm craving for subway cookies right now, especially the raspberry cheesecake flavour. It's so damn nice & awesome can?!
Gosh, I realised I haven't got anything to wear on a coming wedding lunch on 25 sep :\ Probably need to do some dress shopping.

I hate how I'm still easily affected by you. Hate this.

Just felt like blogging all of the sudden. Not really cause I'm in a bad mood or upset all those.
Well it's like suddenly I have a million thoughts running through my mind never mind if they are positive or negative ones. I'm not emo or whatsoever. I just felt like doing some flashbacks so yeah.
Life back in primary school was really great. No drama, no backstabbers, no bitches, no assholes, no heartbreaks and etc. People don't really care about how you dress or how good looking you are back then, like really. Looking at the way I dress back then I'm really kind of speechless, like typical nerd.
The worst feeling you can get back then isn't as bad as now. One example of a horrible feeling is heartbreak, you take months or even up to a year plus to get over that special someone. For me it's really terrible I swear. It took me almost a year to get over him. Well, we only lasted 2 months and 27 days, almost 3 months and everything ended. Yes, first love is hard to forget. In fact, I could remember how we got together, all the sweet stuff & etc. Sometimes, looking back at such things isn't so bad. Not that I still have feelings for the person but it's like the happy memories just make me smile whenever I'm upset you see. Oh yes, actually, I probably never had the chance to say this and I don't think you will see it anyway. I'm thankful for the wonderful memories & in fact I seemed to have attended a lesson as well. Well, last long with your girlfriend :D
I can't imagine how childish I was in the past, back in primary school. But it was fun back then. I'm not saying that it isn't fun right now, don't get me wrong. Me and my friends used to feed a stray cat back then after school like whenever we are free. Once, we even chased the cat up to the 9th floor just to play with it. I think I'm mad to have done such thing.
Sometimes, I really do miss those times. Well, at least I still have memories of then (:

By the way, an eye candy to share with you guys :D
Chunji from Teen Top. Seriously his winks are like *faint* Haha. He just winks so much in No more perfume on you and the winks are so mesmerizing alright. A new bias of mine :P hee.

From now on, I shall just keep my mouth shut or you can say close one eye & pretend that everything is fine.

I'm tired of getting 'lol's. End of story.

No, this time I won't crumble.
Lots of shit is going to happen but they're just gonna make you stronger.

Just thought of blogging before I head for bed, so yeah.
Had been a good girl and stayed at home to study for the past few days. Currently, I'm done with history & chemistry. Hopefully everything is in my mind already.
Shall continue with additional mathematics ten years series tomorrow or you can say in the morning.
Well, I think I've got quite a lot of self-control these days. Hadn't been using the computer till like it's 10pm or 11pm.
Had been watching movies these days after studying. Movies that are screened like a few years back then. Raise your voice, The first time, The winning season, The Lizzie McGuire Movie, Popstar. All of them are nice movies or maybe not so bad kind.
Oh yes, you're getting on my nerves. Quit messaging in the middle of the night asking me to chat with you before you sleep. Like hello?! Do I look like I'm your entertainer or something? I'm enjoying my movie & suddenly your message pops up and destroys my mood. For goodness sake, I need a break. No names mentioned, you know who are you.
I have enough shit okay? I'm tired. My cough just wouldn't recover & it's affecting my sleep alright. Hopefully I don't fall sick during prelim 2.

Alright, target for morning:
-Finish additional maths ten years series (if possible)
-Get started with physics
Shall get a caramel frappe from mccafe in the afternoon. Shan't be lazy (:

Self reminder:
This must stop affecting me so easily.
C'mon girl, you should be moving on & quit looking back. Got to stay super positive yeah.
Quit reading past messages & recalling the past memories then make yourself miserable.

Okay that's all, good night lovelies :D

I smurf you :D hee.

Went to orchard with junyi, sooche, clarice, jiahui & limhui to catch The Smurfs movie.
It was nice. Most people watching the movie are like kids who are super young :x
It made me felt kind of old for the movie O: nevertheless, the movie was nice.
Before watching the movie we're like trying to stuff our wanton noodles down our throat within 10 minutes cause we didn't have enough time & the cook is like damn slow can?
Missed the front part of the movie but still okay. At least we didn't miss the interesting part.
Headed for k-pool but then they've got age limit of 16 there so, headed for arcade at SCAPE instead.
$5/hour at zone-x so yeah & there's pool also! :D but also need to be 16 so only me, sooche & limhui played and the rest went for the machines.
I seriously think I'm addicted to pool. I had a craving to play till late today but we only bought the 1 hour ticket & since I stayed out late the previous day so only played for an hour ):
Today, my legs muscles are seriously aching like mad from all the running at the gathering yesterday. Didn't even feel like going out today cause was really drained from 8 hours of gathering with 6b'07 peeps.

Hello people, I'm in super duper good mood today. Hee, so I will just start with yesterday.
English paper in the morning, I think I screwed my paper 1 so forget it, I'm like screwing all my papers.
Went back home to bathe and rushed out. Got my birthday present and went to meet peeps at clementi. Bought koi and went to school for mid-autumn festival celebration.
This year wasn't as fun as the past few years & I don't know why.
Had yami yoghurt with Jiaen after that and went home with my aching legs.
As for today, I think I will be crapping a lot. Currently, I'm super high.
Went to school for ACES day and teachers' day celebration. Hate the mass walk to the max.
Play cling cling for class bonding & took photos. Went off to meet 6b'07 peeps at jurong point.
Wasn't expecting a lot of people to turn up but I think we've got half of the class there.
I swear it was kind of awkward in the beginning. All of the guys changed a lot.
Wanted to watch movie but went to kopitiam instead. However, we went back to primary school instead of eating.
We just keep changing our destination. Visited the teachers back in the school and Malcolm played the violin for us. He's so damn freaking talented and cute can?! And FYI he's only 9 years old.
We gone kind of mad and started to play cling cling in the parade square. Super fun though I've been running like mad to chase after people.
Played ice & water after that but soon got chased out of school by some random teacher.
Headed for jurong central park's macs & had our late lunch. Gossiped & talked about random stuff. I am like mad hungry when we reached there. I've missed a total of 4 meals since the previous day's lunch.
Afterwards, we headed for safra to play pool. Wanted to end at 7.30 but we dragged to 8.30 then lastly 9.30+
Learned how to play pool from the guys today & we soon got addicted so that explains the dragging.
The last part was damn funny. The final black ball keep don't want to go in, we spent like 15 minutes to get it in. We're like the nosiest group of people in the room. 4 hours straight, from 5.30pm to 9.30pm we've been making a din. The people must be very irritated by us :x
Rushed home after that cause it was getting late when we ended the game at 9.40pm
Movie with clique tomorrow, hopefully my parents will allow me to go out tomorrow.